On-The-Border-Line

Hi everyone! Today I am going to share what I do every morning (or almost every morning).   When I wake up in the morning, my cat usually likes to snuggle for a few minutes before leading the way towards the kitchen for food. Before I go get her food I stop in the bathroom and wipe my eyes with a face wipe. Usually my eyes are very crusty in the morning, so I use one of these Neutrogena Wipes to get rid of the crusts and wake me up a little bit.   Georgia will lead the way to the kitchen and meow at me until I get her wet food out. I usually give her either 9 Lives Cat Food or Fancy Feast. After I give her food, I change her water and clean her litter box. My cat always comes first before me.   After that I take my daily multivitamin which is a Flintstones with Iron. I know that’s usually for kids, but I need that Iron in my body and I don’t know of any adult ones that have Iron that are chewable. I don’t like swallowing pills either. I also g...

Lots of people with Borderline Personality Disorder struggle with maintaining healthy romantic relationships. I have struggled with maintaining romantic relationships my whole life. As of right now, I have been single for about 7 months. Most of my relationships have only lasted around 2-3 months, right when the “honeymoon” phase starts to fade. I feel like the relationships end because I lack the coping skills I need whenever something bad happens.   With Borderline, we have the fear of abandonment. When we’re in a romantic relationship, we are constantly worried that they are going to leave us. We’ll start getting thoughts like “they’re going to cheat on us” or “they don’t love me.” Any little indication that gets us to think that they’re going to leave gets these thoughts going. Then we start acting differently when we’re worried about that, and that actually pushes them away. This eventually will lead them to actually leaving, which is what we’re most afraid of. I ac...

JANUARY 19 — JANUARY 27 On Friday January 19th, I finally did something that I had been procrastinating on forever. I called to set up my consult appointment to get my wisdom teeth out. They have been starting to cause problems and sometimes I feel some pain. So I figured it’s about time to get them out. Step one was calling to set up that appointment. It won’t be until February 23rd. Then I’m hoping the actual surgery will be either in the late spring or sometime over the summer. Of course, I’m quite nervous about it.   My sister, Emma, and I decided to go shopping at Walmart and Target because she needed a flash drive and I needed food. I found some new gluten free things that I wanted to try including lasagna, meatballs, breakfast bowl, chocolate muffins, granola bars, and soup. I tried the lasagna when I got home, and it was amazing. Except that it’s $5 for one meal. That’s pretty expensive. I also tried the meatballs tonight and they are amazing as well and cost...

Hi everyone, today I will be reviewing several skincare products that I got from the brand Bliss. I decided to try it because I’m always looking for new ways to get healthier and better looking skin. I also decided to try it because these products happened to be on sale. It was originally $35 dollars to get all five of these products and I only paid $15 dollars. So that was a really good deal. Now, let’s dive in to the products. The first product in the box is the Bliss Triple Oxygen Instant Energizing Cleansing Foam. This is a liquid to foam formula that gently washes away makeup and impurities while hydrating and detoxifying skin at the same time. This product contains vitamins A, C & E, soy protein, aloe, and magus leaf flower. Before applying this it says to make sure your face is damp. It only takes one pump to cover your whole face. Once you scrub it on your face, you just rinse it off with water immediately.   The next product is the Bliss T...

Hi everyone! Today I’m going to start talking more in depth about the symptoms of borderline personality disorder and how each one has affected me specifically. Today we will be talking about efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.   This is one of the core criteria of Borderline Personality Disorder. When someone tells us that they’re leaving for an extended period of time, it can cause us to be very anxious. Things such as break ups are especially difficult for people with BPD. Even short term things like going away on trips for an extended period of time are difficult. Even as short term as canceling plans makes us feel anxious. We also get anxious over imagined abandonment. This means that if someone says something that causes us to think that they’re leaving, but they don’t outright say that they’re leaving, we overthink about what they said and assume that they mean that they’re leaving us and it causes anxiety.   Our fear of abandonment, whether it...

Hi everyone! So I decided that every few weeks, I’m going to talk about what’s actually going on in my life. I mean, I do talk about a lot of things that are huge in my life such as mental illness and celiac disease, but I don’t really talk about the other things. So every few weeks, you’ll get a recap of what I’ve been doing for the past few weeks.   WEEK ONE: January 1st -- January 6th So let’s start off with ringing in the New Year. This New Year’s Eve was actually a quieter one. The past two years, I’ve gone to small parties, and before that, I would just hang out with my family. This year, I went to my friend Gerry’s house. Just me, Gerry and his dog Pocket. We braved the cold temperatures to have some late dinner at Silly’s Restaurant in Portland and then watched Leverage on Netflix for a while. I ended up falling asleep at around 11:30pm. So, I missed ringing in the new year. I wasn’t partying hard, I wasn’t kissing anyone. Nope, I was sleeping. 24 years old and...

Hey guys! Today I decided to show you a sample of what I typically get at the grocery store. I have celiac disease which means that I can’t have anything with gluten in it. Gluten is found in products that contain wheat, barley, and rye which is typically found in the bread, cereal and pasta group on the food pyramid. Meats with breading on it are also not safe for people with celiac. Luckily, there are lots of gluten free substitutes out there. I’ll talk a lot more about this topic in my next video on YouTube, but now let’s get into the items: To start off, I got some PerDue Simply Smart Gluten Free Breaded Chicken Tenders. This is my go-to meat product because it’s very simple to prepare and it tastes really good. You can simply throw it in the microwave for about a minute and a half and it’s ready (though you can also use an oven, but I’m lazy). There is also a regular breaded chicken tenders by PerDue that’s exactly the same, but just includes gluten. Next, an ...